In my reflection this week, I have been able to do a little better at remembering I am powerless, and rely fully on the power and strength of God.
I have been much more calm this week - and I am having a much easier time staying present in the day I have been given rather than worrying about what tomorrow brings.
I am struggling with the helping, giving, and assisting hiatus that I am on - because the book told me I needed to until I am in a healthier state of mind.
I am not sure where that begins... like with my children, husband, friends etc.
So its another moment by moment thing.
What I know is that the actions that I take today - and my reactions today - will have an effect on my tomorrow.
If I remain calm, and remind myself that God is control - that will help my whole process today - and bring a better tomorrow.
I also remember that anytime I have been trying to hold onto control and fall into my survival patterns, I make bad choices and end up hurting myself and maybe even others.
So
I remind myself that I am powerless
But God is in control, and he loves me!
And he wants what is best for me.
And just like me, he loves my children, my family, my friends.
And he wants what is best for them too.
Its not all up to me, to care for and worry about them.
God has it all under control if I would just let go.
I breathe in and I breathe out a few times.
And tell him THANK YOU.
And then motion on in my world.
