We had a great week last week - and welcomed a few new folks to our meeting! It was great. We missed those of you who could not be there, but we hope to see you this Wed.
We talked mostly about the first 3 steps and how we move into this journey by first understanding that we have come to CODA because our life, or situations in our life, have become unmanagable.
We have entered into a place where we don't know what to do next, and are arms are lifted in exasperation for a hope of relief.
POWERLESSNESS:
First of all - Welcome to that great place of knowing that you can't fix it.
We are powerless over our lives, our selves and others. And we must admit that we are powerless.
We cant fix it.
For me, there is great power and serenity in remembering that I can't fix it.
Like we discussed this past week, knowing that I can't fix it releases me from the responsibility to fix it, and to fix others. I am powerless. I cant do it.
KNOWING A POWER GREATER THAN MYSELF:
Next is a step of faith - and learning to be friends with and begin to understand a higher power.
A power greater than yourself.
This can be difficult if you have not considered a higher power in your life before.
I encourage you to read about faith, and to explore the many different aspects of faith and power out there. If you are interested in attending church, I encourage you to do so. If you find yourself curious about other types of faiths around the world, I encourage you to read about them, visit temples, mosques, meditation centers, libraries. Begin the quest of knowing who your higher power is for you... and spend time with yourself contemplating the idea that there is power greater than yourself that makes the world and the universe go round.. you now need to lean into that and find that for yourself.
FOR ME, THIS WEEK I HAD TO BE REMINDED ABOUT "only enough for today":
This week for me I had a great image given to me by my reading. I struggle with wanting to know what is going to happen with all the good and bad things that are going on in my life now. I want to know what is around the corner and what is in store for this week, this month, this year. I want to be given security in knowing that there is a plan of action and a method for handling what the future holds.
If I am truly giving myself, my life, my future, MY WILL over to God. Then knowing what is around the corner of today, tomorrow, next week etc is not important.
My reading told me this:
Your path will be illuminated. I will shine my light for you and lift you from the darkness.
But your path will be illuminated enough for you to see today, enough for you to get through today.
Dont worry that there will not be light for tomorrow, or that tomorrow will be too difficult
For when tomorrow comes, I will illuminate your path again. You will not be left in darkness, ever.
So, today - my path is lit.
I am able to move forward through what I am given. And if worries of what the future holds sneak into my thoughts, I remind myself GOD IS IN CONTROL
I say a quick "hello" to the Holy Spirit who is with me. I remember how grateful I am that I am not alone, and I say "thank you"
And I say - THY WILL BE DONE.
And then I move on.
That has helped me lean into the unknown and be more comfortable in the groundlessness state that I find myself in.
